what are holidays if they are not holidays at all?

instead of a time meant for r&r&r, i feel even more pressurised than usual. Didn't even sleep well last night, getting pissed off from an msn convo, which i think spurred me to wake up at 2am, 5am, and eventually at 9am shivering away.

and my cold isn't getting better. must be due to my unfitful sleep last night. I didn't even off the damn com. Left if on the whole night. with MSN still signed in summore. SHIT!

Can't wait to leave this blasted country. and sever all ties with some assholes.

can't believe that i've been listening to such poison since young. and to think i trusted you so much. and your bastard offspring. especially. i know its all because of your jealousy. i saw your face when i told you i was in hc. so what if you can't hold a candle to the rest of us? the ratrace is as such. anw, your attitude makes me feel nauseated